If I think about how far I have come in the past few years I start to get chocked up. I don't deserve any of the things that I have been given. There is so much that I would like to do with my life. Will I get married? What about kids? How will teaching go? Will I be able to manage my money? I worry about all things. I want to say something heroic like "I am gonna just trust God". Truth is I should but it is so hard. I pray that Jesus is real and that I could trust that He is.